I AM SHOL

The more I think about it, the harder it gets… but I have to admit, watching my son enjoy himself doing something and him just wanting my attention is what makes me question finishing school. I know I’m just trying to fulfill this feeling inside of me that wants to feel some level of accomplishment but in reality I don’t feel like I’ll ever satisfy that empty feeling. I think a lot keeps changing and I constantly weigh all of my options to make sure that I know I’m making the best decision for the future. Lately, I just don’t believe that any of this will change and I really need to keep my attention to my family and friends who do bring joy and fulfillment to my life. My REAL life.