I AM SHOL

I’m constantly trying to learn new things online, but for some reason I feel like it’s more of a distraction than it is learning. I think that’s why I struggle with wanting to even try to learn on my own if I have no clear direction. Maybe this is why school is helpful to some. You have a clear path to what you want to understand. Or, maybe I’m just trying to learn more than what I actually need. That sounds more accurate. Maybe it’s FOMO, maybe is the fact that I still feel like an outcast. Still trying to find my way and where I feel the most comfortable I guess.