I AM SHOL

Sometimes I feel like my presence is no longer necessary, or wanted in certain situations. I had a friend of mine from my old job who invited me to go to a cool event they throw and at first I felt excited to go and see everyone I used to work with, but in a way the universe was telling me not to go. From my son staying asleep the whole night, to just my gut sensing that I just should not go. I don’t know why I feel this way about this particular job. Was it because I was fired for my “performance” on bullshit metrics? Or, is it that I actually feel a little betrayed? I’m not too sure, I usually don’t dwell on these things much, but this is the only job that I actually seem to feel some type of way about. It’s left a small scar personally. All I can do is move on, I have bigger plans that require my full attention. No time to dwell on things I never agreed with.