I AM SHOL

The pressure I’m feeling and impatience that I have is not a good combination when it comes to my financial stupidity. Granted, thankfully I’m aware of it, but my bad habits need to die. They need to be completely drained from me and I need to rebuild my determination for financial and life success. All this stupid spending from being sold “the lifestyle” never brought any good, yes, good stories, and good experiences, but it comes at a cost. A cost that isn’t paying me. Or… I just need to make it so worth it that it does end up paying me? That really is the goal, but man, it’s not an easy road there, but no one said it would be anyway. Fuck, I hate being torn into to different mindsets.