I AM SHOL

Talking to a friend about fashion and just cool shit, but it dawned on me earlier this morning that I still can’t figure out where I fit in the best. Even within the fashion world, I still struggle to identify where I suit best with MY own style, MY own influence, and MY own taste. I know growing up I just wanted to be cool, tattoos, smoking, drinking; looking cool is what I wanted, but I feel like most of my life I’ve just been fitting in with the environments around me. Essentially feeling like I’m just being “politically correct” if that makes sense. I can’t but help feel a bit insecure about it cause the reality is… I just don’t care most of the time. Maybe that’s why I struggle, I don’t dive deep and make anything my “world” and if I do… I get bored. I understand it’s a lifestyle, but repetition, that is what really bores me. Maybe, that’s why I feel like I can’t fit in, if something starts to get popular, I move the other way. Even in smaller cultivated cultures, still too popular, I will do the opposite. It may be a problem.