I AM SHOL

I wish I could be more transparent with decisions I’ve made and with feelings I choose to not show. I don’t really express much when I really sit here and think about it and there’s really no reason to pay some fuck ass therapist to tell me what to do. I know my problems, I just should deal with them a little bit better. I guess I feel like I’m going to regret it later, although, I don’t really regret anything I’ve ever done, but, the thought of hurting someone or even the latter. I think I think about things too much instead of really doing them. I guess that’s only with some things, but I do know that I need to work on my communication a lot more and be able to stand my ground on thoughts and ideas that I believe in. I’ve always had that issue… defending myself. I just take the pain and roll with it. Am I still stuck in a younger mindset at an older age? Does age really mean anything? Or am I thinking like I’m older? I don’t really know.