I AM SHOL

I think I hit a peak of frustration from my outer social life. I feel like I’ve been led like a sheep almost my whole life of what I should do, what I should buy, what I need to be thinking, etc etc, it’s all BULLSHIT to me at this point. It’s so annoying that I led myself here KNOWING it was happening. I don’t care anymore. I don’t care about making more “friends”, making more “money” from gambles and hype, I don’t care about what people try to sell me. I don’t give a fuck. I just want to create my own path and invest in the talents I know I have. I hate that it took so long to get to this point of thinking, but sometimes it just takes time to reveal itself. It’s to the point where all the memes people send me annoy the fuck out of me. Leave me alone, OR let’s create something. That is all. And it’s not that I don’t enjoy a good laugh here and there, but to do it ALL the time starts to irritate me. Like okay fun break over time to work again on the next idea. Am I just a workaholic? Is that all I truly care about? I mean if it is, it’s only cause I care so much of where I want to be in the future, not right now, later. Cause that’s what really matters. Where we guide ourselves now, decides how we live 20+ years from now. It’s a long game and it annoys me when people don’t think about that.