I AM SHOL

I really need to write down these so called skills that I have and try to capitalize on them. I don’t feel like I’ve been applying them correctly for the past few years. Maybe I shot myself in the foot, or maybe, this is just the learning I need to do to progress. I haven’t really seen much progress physically, but I know mentally, I have been much more open to improvement. I will admit, I haven’t found a suitable “mentor” that people claim that you need to find to succeed. I can’t count the managers I work for, they don’t live lives that I would like to pursuit down the same path. That’s the hard truth about having a mentor, you need one that you wouldn’t be mad recreating. An inspiration, a benchmark, essentially. It’s not easy, it’s not supposed to be, but I also believe things will fall into place at the time they need to. I just need to get back to working hard and pushing myself for MY goals and where I want to take myself.