I AM SHOL

Alone time, what would I do without it? I seem to crave alone time since I feel that’s the only time I actually progress and make up for lost time. I do think that this can be a bit of flawed thinking. No one is distracting me, but I do let myself get distracted with that others are doing. It’s like I get caught up in a race and I start to focus on others more than my own race, which causes my pace to become slower. I can no longer fall to social pressures like that. Why do I care so much of others progress and not my own? Although, I do try my best to vocalize I’m doing my own thing, there’s still slight comparison with others that I wish I was ahead more, or more influential, etc. I shouldn’t care, but I do. I just need to be better at realizing that all the work I have done and continue to do, is always going to push me forward whether people are around, or not. That’s what I wanted right? A private successful life? L O L. It’s for the best, really.