I AM SHOL

I’ve been trying to step out of myself lately and really try to look at all my progress objectively. There’s still so much work to do and links to connect. Too many ideas, but do I have enough time in life to get it all connected? I think so. There is one thing that has been bothering me lately, which kind of always lingers, it’s the feeling of not accomplishing a single thing. A project, a task; the little things that I don’t get done are actually always on my mind that I just don’t get it done. My laziness is always taking over and the excuses do too. It’s frustrating to me, but also, I have this weird thought process that when something is finally completed, that it’s over and I’ll feel empty and useless. The reality is that it’s truly fulfillment and I’m just avoiding that feeling, maybe I feel useless and empty right now because I am not fulfilling these smaller tasks? I’ll figure it out, I always do.