I AM SHOL

I may be on my second old fashioned, but my mind is pretty clear and it’s flowing right now. As I always do, I am rigorously, self analyzing myself and my behavior and thoughts. I was thinking just a few days ago, that my biggest issue is my follow through. I don’t know why but it’s like I’m shackled to these false hopes that I leave to others, but also I feel like are done to me. Is this a reflection of myself through society? I would believe so. BUT, I really want to continue the path of rewiring my brain and my behaviors on really sticking to what I say, and finishing everything off, even if it isn’t perfect. I think I was raised by the false sense of commitment and not true commitment itself. Which, is fine, but I need to not rely on the past that was raised in, but the future that I believe in.