I AM SHOL

I was having a serious talk with my boss last night about me being a father now and how crazy it is and also how I missed out on my teen years having to grow up fast cause of how my life was at the time. He proceeded to ask me if I feel like I had to grow up fast because of it. Of course I did. I definitely think a lot of people around me grow up fast and just kinda stay in a certain place or try to regress in their nature to make up for lost time. My reality and the way I think is more like Fuck it, I missed my teen years that’s fine. I didn’t play sports, I didn’t go out chasing girls, or whatever you do. I worked since 16 and I haven’t really turned back since, it’s more about what is next for me. What’s my next venture? What’s my new experience I’m going to gain? There’s more, always. If I decided to go back into a teenager state, I think it would be more detrimental to me in the long run, but I do think there’s needs to be a youthful spirit kept inside me to push through this very boring adult life that most adults live, it’s disgusting and I will make it a mission to not have that life for myself and my children.