I AM SHOL

The one thing I still struggle with is what I want to do for the rest of my life. I just signed up again to see if I can make some decent money doing insurance sales, but really I’m trying to just get licensed in that field cause I have to start there in order to get a securities license and work with wealth management, which is definitely something I’m genuinely interested in. I know it won’t last long for me, nothing really ever does after I lose interest or make enough, BUT I am going to try something new other than retail. That was a tangent, but it was needed for me to read on screen. I also want to make my own AI like Jarvis in Iron Man. I literally am all over the place, but I can’t help the fact that I would love to accomplish a bunch of cool things. I fail most of the time tbh, or maybe I quit? I’m still trying to distinguish which one am I really doing. Am I failing? Or am I stopping short and not letting myself fail? How do I know if I even failed? This is very frustrating, but I am proud of myself for always trying to do something that I have no knowledge of and trying to understand it and build something with it.