I AM SHOL

I more posts on Twitter that I see joking about not being able to let go of their trauma or else they feel they’ll lose a part of their personality, the more I see myself being somewhat of the same way. A part of me has thought about it before. If I go ahead and talk out all my difficulties growing up, what happens once you figure it all out? When you let go and move on from what made you who you are NOW, what’s next? How do you move forward? How do you leave those people behind without feeling like you owe them something? I feel like I carry this weight with everything I do and every thing I try to accomplish. I have big dreams and I won’t let anything get in my way, but a part of me always feels a bit guilty when I think of MY goals and act on them that I shut out people around me just so I can get ahead. I understand it’s growth in my life, but it is hard. I care too much about people and what they think and say. It’s a big flaw.