I AM SHOL

I’m trying to zoom out on my own performance from the last 10 years and honestly I don’t really know how to view it. Do I look back through my own sketchbooks to get an idea? My old journals? I have no idea lol mentally and physically I can feel the difference, but when it comes to my work, I’m stuck on seeing it at all. Maybe I’m not thinking outside of the box and only viewing material things.