I AM SHOL

I haven’t had the chance to even express myself on here with work and life being so damn busy and me sort of neglecting the fact that I still have this lmao. Things are really overwhelming for me at the moment, work, life, going back to school (which I really don’t want to), etc. Honestly I hate the fact that I make a decent income now because I don’t think school is even worth going back to. Like, do I really even want to be an architect? Am I even good enough to be one? Am I creative enough? I see all the creativity around me and around the field and I really feel strongly that I don’t possess the same level of creativity sometimes. It’s kind of shitty cause I feel like discourage myself from pursuing something that I’ve always wanted to do as a kid. I honestly just struggle with those thoughts every direction that I go. I don’t feel like I’m good enough. I do have the skills and the brain for it, but another part of me just pulls me in the other direction. I also think that being creative would help me find a different way of being the same thing that I want to be anyway. I have no clue. I guess we’ll see where life takes me and where all my efforts go to.