I AM SHOL

I feel live my time in certain areas have passed. I wonder if anyone else feels like that? For example, like all these gamers making millions and all that shit right, everyone is starting to jump in on that trend and trying to stream and make YouTube videos. I understand it, I really do, but I feel like my time in that realm has passed since I haven’t really sat there and played videos games in YEARS. I feel like that was something I wanted to do 10 years ago. Now I’m thinking what’s next? Where is MY time going to be when I “make it” in the world? Is it in the real world? Is it in the digital world? I have no clue at all. I know I’ll make a name for myself somewhere, I have this gut feeling about it. I just always feel a little left out? If that even makes sense, but left out in the sense where I feel like what I’m trying to do is always the opposite of what everyone else is doing. I know that’s kind of a really great thing, but it’s pretty lonely when you stray away from what everyone else is wanting to do. Fuck it though, I know I shouldn’t worry about it. I know I’ll find a group of like minded people who aren’t judgmental about my outlook on things, but who aren’t also very much attached to attention from social media. I think I’m finally getting to that point in life lol. Privacy is important! Maybe I should delete social media again, I guess we’ll see.