I AM SHOL

Now that I have this blog, I really feel like I should really get rid of my Twitter and possible my Instagram (again). Maybe just my Twitter. It’s a full ass mess on that app. Also, why are people so fucking weird????? There’s so much shit I can go deep into, but my energy is not gonna go to that kind of shit. Even though that’s kind of the reason why I started this blog in the first place, but let’s be honest, no one wants to hear a grown man bitch and complain about things he has no control over.

Which brings me to my next topic, what is control? Do we really have control over our lives? Are all of our decisions really OURS, or are they preprogrammed in our brain by some divine entity? That’s honestly a topic that drives me mad. What if we have no control of our life and everything is predetermined? Does that mean all our efforts are pointless? That whenever we THINK of something it’s just already a defaulted option in our brain? OR, do we have complete control over our lives and every single decision, from largest to smallest, creates a different outcome of our realities? It really bothers me that there is no actual answer to these questions. Is it just based on our perception of OUR life? I really have no clue at all. Are these the questions that historical philosophers obsessed about? If they did, I’m sure as hell on the same boat. I know shouldn’t stress about what’s not in my control, BUT WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN IF WE POSSIBLY DO NOT HAVE CONTROL???????? See, I’m just going a little crazy idk.